A small salvation for myself

I totally forgot about my 401k that I had with my prev employer. Well I have over $17k in that and I called them about some things and they said I can transfer that into a Rollover IRA (whatever that means) and then make a withdrawl whenever I needed money. Of course I pay fees and things but I will still have the ability to if I needed. Then I will have the money to apply for the Post office like I want and hopefully get that job so I don't have to work nights. Isn't that great. I was here crying when I remembered that 401k thing and how Julian said I should call them about the loans I had taken out previously and change them into withdrawls as well...Gosh I love that boy sometimes. LOL! Well I am still a little bummed about the edd thing but I am not dead yet. And hopefully I can get everything straighted out with me. WHEW!!! I am breathing a sigh of relief right now. Jennifer

AHHH!!!

AHH!!!!
I am so dumb!!! I am so very dumb!!! I wasn't paying attention to the edd paperwork and didn't realize I was about to get the last check I could get for the rest of the year. I thought I would get it to the end of the year...how dumb am I for not paying attention. Had I actually read it I would have noticed it earlier and been looking for a job much harder than I have been. I am so naive. I opened it up before going to the post office to mail it off and realized there was only one week for me to fill out then I read it and that was the last week I was gonna get paid for and I was supposed to send it off last Sunday even though I didn't get it till monday. AHHHHHH!!!!!!!! So I am pretty much assed out on the bills that I have coming in because we sure can't live off of Julian's check. We both have to register our cars this month and rent is due and AHHH!!! I just wanna scream really loud and then cry my eyes out because it was my own fault for not paying attention like I should have.
I have applied for a few 3rd shift jobs because then I wouldn't have to pay for daycare for the boys but at the same time I won't be getting much sleep. I am just hoping to hear from one of them soon because I can't go without getting paid for much time. I mean I can ask my aunt for money but I hate having to owe people and I already owe her some money from prior to moving here. AHHH!!!!! I just wanna cry... :( It is all so frustrating. I mean I thought I was gonna get paid for the year while looking for a job. I wasn't worried that it was only for 6 months and then I couldn't renew until next year. I was hoping to be able to wait till Gabriel started school. And I applied for 3rd shift so I could be there for him when he does go to school. But I am just needing a job now. but it has to be late unless they are willing to pay me at least $45K which who in the city is gonna pay that to a loser like me. I don't have a college degree just 8.5 years of working for Verizon and being spoiled by my pay there. I mean going from $60K to less is gonna be hard but I have to work around.

I wanted to apply to the post office but you have to pay money to get an application and the stuff needed to apply for their tests but I don't have the money to do it right now especially with the bills I have to pay still. That job would have paid me enough to work a regular job and regular hours and I would love it there. But I have to keep looking so I better get going. Wish me luck and big money in my search for a job. Jennifer

Its already starting

I KNEW IT!!! Today I called my mother in law to see if there was anything she was gonna need anything before they arrived...well she said no that she has everything she needs. Well while I was out at Target getting a few things I guess she called Julian with the "list" of things she wants to make sure we have here for their trip. GRR!!!

Okay, first off, I am the one that does the shopping so she should've just told me in the first place instead of telling Julian who then has to relay it to me. Second, what she is asking for sounds like she is going to take over my kitchen and that just AIN'T happening. This is my house and when you are a guest in my house I do the cooking. Not you. And she is asking for more than they are going to need during their stay here which means we are gonna get stuck with stuff we don't like or use.

AHH!!! And then Julian has decided that today is the day to rearrange everything. He cleaned out our closet (who the frick is gonna go in there but me and him!) and now I can't find anything because he decided to pack stuff up and throw it in the basement. Oh and he rearranged the basement storage area and now I can't find crap in there either. I had the boxes right where I knew where everything was and could find anything I needed in a sec. But now he taped all the boxes closed and rearranged them. Who the hell is gonna critique our basement for chrimeny sakes.

And we didn't have enough pillows for them so he was ready to offer up ours...we only have 2 on our bed...one for me and one for him. What the hell...I need a gosh darn pillow to sleep asshole! So I went out and bought them some pillows and now he makes a comment that I didn't buy the big fluffy ones for his parents. I don't know if he forgot that his parents pillows are all flat (I MEAN REALLY FLAT). I had to fold them over in half in order to get my head off the bed. So they must like them flat. Even there pillows in their room are flat. I don't know whether they like it that way or they just don't buy new pillows when they go flat.

So they get in tomorrow at 6am. They are taking a non stop flight from LAX at almost 12. I had figured that we could go to the zoo before we go to a birthday party at 330 tomorrow. So I told Julian my suggestion and he said he didn't think that was a good idea because his parents will be flying all night and will be exhausted when they get here. So am I supposed to sit around until they are ready to go do something. I know they are guests but why waste a whole day sitting at home doing nothing...I am a person that is always on the go...I understand not everyone is like that but if I am not out of the house by 10 I generally won't be doing anything at all the rest of the day. Julian told me not to plan anything at all just give them a list to choose from and then take them when they want to go but I am a planner.

Oh and yeah. I told Julian a few weeks ago that we should buy a coffee maker because his mom and dad like drinking coffee in the morning. Neither Julian or I drink coffee so we don't have one. He told me that it wasn't necessary to go buy one because his dad will just go get some at the gas station or something. Well over the weekend Maggie (Julian's mom) told Julian he needed to make sure we had a coffee maker because Julian Sr drinks 2 cups in the morning. HELLO!!! WHY DOESN'T ANYONE LISTEN TO ME!!!

Okay enough ranting for now...I am sure I will be back here often during their trip. I just know I will have more to rant about then.